time may change me

4:08 PM

Holy smokes, we made it through 2016!  I’m not going to lie; it got pretty sketchy there at the end. If you’ve ever been through a rough patch, where everything just seems wrong or a little (a lot) off, my past two weeks can relate. 

Near the end of December I started to essentially self-destruct. I received a bit of bad news and everything came tumbling down after that. I distanced myself from everybody who cared about me, I hurt the feelings of those I love most, I had a short fuse, and I was totally bummed 24 hours a day. I acted out of character  - awkward, weird, and pretty rude. I couldn’t shake it. I thought it was out of my control – but we all knew I could do something about it. 

I spent a good chunk of my winter “break” by myself. I wandered the city and Brooklyn for new nooks I had yet to discover. I detached from everything and went on hikes. I made friends with a new book that I still can’t put down. I was asleep by midnight on New Year's Eve. I treated myself to a massage. I went on coffee dates with nobody. I searched far, wide, and deep for answers when I couldn’t even find the questions.

While I don’t feel like I’ve figured it all out, I do know that I’m inspired to turn different areas of my life in some new directions. I’m excited to dedicate my time and energy toward something positive for myself.  For the first time since moving back to New York, I feel like I have some true goals in mind.

We all need to hit the restart button sometimes.

Jacket: Twenty5A
Sweater: Forever21
Shirt: H&M
Glasses: Urban Outfitters
Bag: Haystacks Brand
Boots: CAT Footwear

Photos by Alyssa Timoteo

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